Where is the ox?

Being teleporting between work(NEA), aikido, and Zen lessons recently.

Can't really say i'm having a hell of a good time at work. Everything is so new to a newbie like me. There seems to be so many things i don't know. Didn't help that i'm the youngest one there. And it just seem to be a time of changes, with 2 supervisors quiting just as i came in(and there are good people too). I'm well, scare. And a little worried.

Aikido's stilll the same. But it's easier now that i'm working at scott road. You know, it's the friendship that gets me back everytime. Doesn't matter where the dojo is, i go for the people there.

Oh, the most interesting things are the series of Zen workshop by Ven. Chi Kwang. She is the first real teacher that guide me on meditation. I feel attracted to her. I think she looks a little like pooh bear. Always calm, cheerful, and compassionate, she share her jounary thought life with us. But i always thought there is a hint of sadness in her eyes. Maybe it's regret for us, at not been able to catch the teaching she's throwing? She is so human, she gave me a feeling that i too will be able to go where she has been. A hope maybe.
I went to say goodbye to her at BF. How i regreat always coming late for her class. She said i'm young, ask me how i am. She told me to: "do your best in everything you do. But if it gets too hard, like your leg's painful during meditation, then do something else."