Rhinoceros!

A tree is either growing, or it's dying. Just like us really.
The past one month I have taken on more work scoop and responsibility. Mainly due to the high turn over rate at my department. Very sad to see so many good friends leaving. It's beginning to seem like that the only proof of your ability is to resign. I have to say that the stress is getting to me, plainly, I can't breath there.

frankly, I don't agree with some of the things my org is doing and the ways we are doing it; And the people, oh the people, it only I can fire all of them. My inability to bring do anything about it, added by addition work load is killing me.

Looking back, I use to attack life with such energy. I enjoyed work, had dreams and wild ideas(being a masseur?), excised, aikido, sculpted balloons, took courses.
Now, I can barely get out of bed, hasn't being to aikido for like forever, can't sculpt a dog to save my life, and worst, have this really nasty temper and carries a frown wherever I go.

I need an exit, fast.

Being taking some personality test online(ask me how to get free reports from tickle.com!) and considering applying for U.

p/s: A friend who resigned, told me about a French play call: "rhinoceros", about a town where everyone is slowing turning into a rhinoceros, except for one person. I feel like that sometime.