Mid-autumn

Mid autumn festival is my favorite festival of the year, although chirstmas is a close second. Everything about it is nice. The nice lanterns, the nice mooncakes(not too sweet), the sound of playing children, and the cool night wind. Its so private, unlike other festivals. No need to entertain anyone u don't like. A few close friends, or even alone with the moon.
I would love to roam the park with a nice candle lantern(always wish to have a hammer handy when i'm around one of those battery ones with build-in beeper.), sail paper boats on the pool, long dreamy stare into the skys...maybe even go admire the lanterns. Problem is, its so strange to do all this alone. Who can make the time? They should really make it a public holiday. I mean u wants more babies right? I think mid-autumn is a 100 times more romantic then valentine. Its the most beautiful, warm-hearting time of the year.
Who to spent it with? Who to spent it with?

Dream life

This is freaking me out! Ever had the feeling u have been living in a dream world. Like neo in the matrix? Well i have been sleeping so irregularly and so often that i started having 'normal' dreams. Dreams that i do 'almost' normal things. All my friends appears in my dreams. Well, most of the girls anyway. But guys really do exist. As the border thinned, I have started telling things i want to tell my friends in real life, in my dreams. Then i woke up with confessing memories about what had actually happened in the past. Was that part in a dream? Or did i really said that to him? Weird huh. I do all sorts of things in dreams. Interact with all sorts of people. And i see all the friends i miss in them.

In the past, people believed that we lived on a piece of flat ground. Some ancient civilizations believed that the world was carried on top of a giant turtle. A little while ago, we were told that we live on a globe that spins around a bigger globe. And the whole thing spins around with other stuff that's too vast to comprehend. Add space, and time and gravity to the whole mess and some extra ingredients we don't really know. And that's just 1 universe.

The truth is. And we all know the truth. We live in a world that spins, between our ears.

So, what's up

Finally clearing my leave. The last few week can best be described as "confuseing". Ever have days where u are so busy doing nothing? Sorting out my personal life and clearing my room proofs to be major work. There's appointment to be made, errands to be run and there's stuff in my closet running back to my secondary school days. I still got my sec1 texts for whatever sake.

bbq? Hurt my heart to see people unhappy. On a brighter note, i've got a list of movies i wan to watch. Garfield, terminal, new police story...so anyone out there wana treat me to a movie? Man, i'm broke. Just recieved my last pay check from saf. Hey, finally i'm on my own.But problem is that i still get calls from camp. Doing stock take i think. Hello? I can't spent my life solving your fucking problems.

Just had a gathering with my old bmtc mates, everyone still the same. Bless all of them. Saw some friends off on oversea trips, one guy nearly died(ok, so it's not his fault), finally get to paying my bills and sign up for courses(did i mention how poor i'm?), got a gmail account(who want one?), finally get around to do that volunteer tution thingy(wish me luck on this one), met a few primary school friends, room still in a mess, well life in a mess too, 2many things going on. Feel like sleeping all the time, got to get a job. Feel to go back aikido 2morrow.

Channel i new series: Dead like me is nice. I like it.

Think Twice

I got this insightful e-mail from a friend. Thought i'll doll it up a little and load it up.
(Took me whole night, required reading!) Think Twice!

Dear God, be good to me.
The sea is so wide,
and my boat is so small.

-Breton Fisherman's Prayer

Bye Bye Mayflower

Went back to mayflower for a farewell dinner at the old school building. Homecoming they call it. How we have ALL growth up. Everyone look more tire, that's how you can tell. The students have moved on and have taken new responsibilities and roles, no longer the teenagers we were huh. Yet no matter how a person changes, somthings never change. It's like the, the, well the person 'inside' is still the same no matter how many children you have or what car you drive now. (Btw Teenage sucks. I think it's never easy for anyone. Anyone who want to be a teenager again must be out of their mind.)

A lot of us miss the school, some came back for the tour only. Surprising a lot really. Some could'nt make it i guess. But of course, what we really miss are the times we spend in our school. And of course the people. And our augurments, crushes, problems, punishments. In short, our growing up.

What to do? I mean even the teachers are retiring. Might even be a few funeral coming up.(Hey! This is real life, what do you expect?)

Seriously, we have learnt a awful lots of things in Mayflower. Much more than books and exams. And we have met many wonderful people, teachers and students, in here. The friendships forged will last forever. It's not a perfect school, but at least, I like it.

We live, work, and dream.
Each his own little scheme.
Sometime we laugh, sometime we cry.
And thus, the days go by.

Bye Bye Mayflower, to all - blessed be.

Fly Guy

U have got to check it out!
Strangely therapeutic.
http://www.trevorvanmeter.com/flyguy/

I want that smile!

The only smiles i saw the whole day was on the face of the rubbish collectors i met this morning. What power! Instantly we all became friends. What joy! I help them load their load, and they help me load mine.
How many of us would want to have that smile on their face.

"They deem me mad because I will not sell my days for gold;
and I deem them mad because they think my days have a price"-Kahlil Gibran

"It is not necessary to have great things to do.
I turn my omelet in the pan for the love of God"-Brother Lawrence

"If two angles wre sent down from heaven-one to conduct an empire, and the other to sweep a street-they would feel no inclination to change employments"-Isaac Newton

"Money has never yet made anyone rich"-Seneca

And with a wave, they are on their way.

heavy heart

I know not what else to call this blog. The recent passing of a friend has leave me with a heavy heart. Ever wonder why people always gather when theres a birth or a death?
Bush hater out there will want to catch the 9/11 show. I watched it. It's fun. There might even be a grind of truth in there somewhere.
I handed over my duty to a new guy today. So by right, i should be clearing my offs and leaves now. And so should everyone else. But no one in camp seems happy. The only smiling faces are on those who are staying on. Wonder why.